Late Holiday Post!

So finally, its time for holidays!

There are so many things that I want to do.

I need to meet up with my friends....clear as much of my driving lessons as possible and play my games!! I've gotten so many games but yah... i don't have any time to play at all. You know the feeling of setting up the most powerful computer u ever had in ur life..but not being able to appreciate it fully? its damn sux one ok!

This isn't exactly what I envisioned NUS life to be like. I expected myself to have enough time for my games and for my friends during the non-holiday period. I took up a CCA and I was thinking that if I had time during the holidays..maybe I could work a little to add up to my investment funds. But yah... NUS turned out to be the extreme opposite of what I had expected.

I knew it would be challenging. But I did not expect school to drain me of my life, I had no time for other things besides my GF. I lost touch with my friends. I probably think that they had given up asking me out anymore! I'm always too busy. I used to believe that hard work pays off.. but i think the environment has changed.. hard work doesn't really pay here in nus.. I think in order to do well in NUS u gotta be very well-composed. Some of the papers are set with the intention of killing off 90% of the students... panicking would only make things worse...

I haven't really made any new friends in nus.. I don't find myself happy in school. Joining a CCA did not help as well. I guess I'm too used to SPAC2GO. At least everyone knows each other in there.. I used to look forward to getting my exam results.. now the more i think about it..the more sian i get. People say after army will take some time to get used to studying.. i don't think that is a valid reason... there surely must be a reason why the girls are also struggling right?

I find it really funny. I was telling people how I was looking forward to schooling again while I was still in the army. Everytime our tonner passes by NTU, I would feel happy.. knowing that I would one day be out of the army... and back to school. But come to think of it now, I guess the army is a better place after all. I had time to exercise..to keep fit and I could afford plenty of rest! I had friends in the army, I could still remember all the nights out we had. I miss having pizza at bento box @ jp. And i miss talking crap to my fellow specs. We suffered...but at least we suffered together and we supported each other through the difficult times. In NUS, we suffer together.. but I guess everyone's too occupied to bother helping one another? You don't even feel like getting to know new guys when u are schooling now.

Schooling is messing up my body... In the army, there were also lots of stressful periods. However, we knew that the suffering would end. In NUS, there seems to be no end to the sufferings. You are bombarded by 1 tutorial after another.. and these tuts are not easy. Its not like in the poly days where you could simply do 4 tutorials ahead of class and just go about doing your own studies and slack about.

I miss the sound of firing my 25mm weapon.. I miss the roar of my vehicle as we speed about the training area. I even miss the smell of the jungle in the morning.. you can never find it elsewhere...